sick psychotic feeling

alhamdulillah
majlis aqiqah WAAWAF went on smoothly.
the foods were good. especially the cake part. i made it. proudly.

but throughout the majlis, i kept missing in action.
i was totally disturbed by my own feelings.
forgive me mom and dad. for not lending my hands.
your daughter needed her own space.

went to catch up with aifaa and hani.
comfort. that's what they provided.
but did not let my feelings show.

i could not forget 'the words'.
he managed to fool himself .
he managed to hurt me.
but ain't no tears falling.